Typing test

Wow! I just took a typing test for kicks and discovered my score was 80 wpm. It could have been better but the unexpected semi colon got me off track for a second.

It makes sense: I responded to 60 emails on Tuesday and probably just as many yesterday but I was too worn to count.

That would make reason number 123 that makes me better than the rest and your loss…..somewhere.

Mood: Kind of Surprised

Payday

I process time sheets at work on Fridays for the next week’s payday.

Today an employee called in sick promising to go to the doctor and then called back advising the direct deposit did not go through.

Yikes! My initial fear was wondering if I did something wrong. After consulting with the main office payroll department we have learned that the bank made a boo-boo and the direct deposits won’t hit banks until tomorrow. It wasn’t my fault.

The sweetest part was the same employee’s wife was worried about me and what they could do for me. Ahhh….that was very nice. (He’s a hard worker and has the sweetest wife in the world.) I’m all good and this won’t really effect me at all. I typically don’t do my financial stuff till the following Monday evening. It was just the thought that someone in a position of not having something they rely heavily on to be on time….was more concerned with me.

Maybe I haven’t lost complete faith in people. There’s a good chance there are caring people out there.

Mood: Relief

Ooops

I walk in to play practice tonight and our costume director has clothes and a makeshift sympathy outfit to try on. It turned out to be terrible and there is a possibility of it showing up on a website with the (non) baby daddy.

You see, I'm in a play. I am playing a character, Mae Pollitt, who is nine months pregnant, has several children in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof.

But on my twitter...cause I'm a little on the blonde side, I might have mentioned I was trying on pregnancy outfits and got four comments of......What the...?

So, I'm definitely not pregnant.

Mood: Sudden craving for pickles and ice cream.

Work was

mighty, mighty busy today. I like busy. It makes the day fly by. Yesterday had me running in circles too. Tomorrow...I expect the same. The best thing right now was hearing a vendor tell me I've made this too easy. I spent thousands of dollars with the guy and didn't have a million questions. I've gotten to where I'm feeling a little more comfortable in the job. I look forward to the work.

Friday will be tough because I won't want to leave just to go home to an empty house. But I got chores for myself.....a nice little checklist.

I think, also, to remind myself to smile I might add a little decoration to my desk. If my brain cell isn't occupied at the moment I might post a pic.

My desk just needs a little kbuggie flare.

Mood: Thinking

Weight Breakthrough

My normal weigh in is on the weekends BUT I knew I was one pound away from seeing a number I’ve been waiting to see….and this morning was the morning. I’ll show the weight at some point….I’m just not ready to share yet.

Last night was a terrible sleeping night. It just didn’t happen. So today, I have a ton of work to do with sensitive burning eyes, and heavy sleepiness following me around.

Tonight is play practice and I don’t wanna. I want my blankie and a movie to stare blankly at.

I’ve got a project I’m working on that I will finish this weekend. I have a ton of faith in myself and can’t to show off what I did.

Mood: Restless

Good night.

Today I have learned that I'm still in a bad mood.

Going to bed.

Mood: Exhausted

Friends

A coupla friends called to check up and chit chat.

Most importantly they passed on some badly needed lovin. Just talking, even if it was in code, in the bathroom while hiding from the kids....was very nice to the upteenth degree.

That made my heart feel good.

Mood: touched

Weekend

is sneaking back up a little too quickly.

Now any week my girls go to their dad's I don't look forward to the time away. I know little girls need their father's influence in their lives...mine still raise an eyebrow at me. My girls are also very lucky to have him so involved in anything they do. I might mention that it shouldn't be "lucky", it should just be. I know of situations where dad's are only involved where they are forced to be involved...and that just sucks. Yes, for the sake of argument I'll admit that there are mom's that do the same thing. At any rate...the point is...this week my previous activities will cease and desist immediately....... which makes me just not look forward to the weekend that much more.

This weekend...it's all about me. Well, and the dogs...and the cat. I might even throw in a another box of Kleenex or two.

Mood: Sore nose.

It's another day

I had the worst time getting out of bed this morning. It’s not that I was tired. I just didn’t want to get up. I did have a very pleasant morning school drop off though. I let the six year old “drive” in the parking lot to her drop off spot. I love her giggle. Its contagiously wonderful.

My older daughter is fixing to be eleven. That disturbs me and baffles me. The day she was born almost seems like an eternity away. My life might be more complicated now, but back then it was a struggle. At one point I worked three jobs. That’s hard to imagine. One of those jobs paid less than six dollars an hour and another I felt highly paid at seven something dollars an hour. Ahhh….those were the days.

I’m trying to not sink into depression this week by focusing on the positive.

Mood: Yucky.

Going to Bed

...right after I test this post an email theory.

Words....

....can be like a piece of paper. Take a smooth nice piece of paper and everytime you say something it crumbles the paper and the more you say the more crumbled the paper gets.

No harm?
Now take back every word, crumbling, and see how smooth you can get it. You can't. Impossible. The point is that even when you apologize and offer to take it back..... you are still left with visible signs of crumbling left behind.

I'll never forget teaching that lesson to a girl scout troop and it was one of those that seem to really impact the girls. For that one lesson I really felt like I had everyone's full undivided attention and participation. When we were done they were calm and seemed to look at each other a little closer wondering if they had said anything that would have hurt. They didn't ask any questions or offer any stories like younger children love to do...they just looked back and forth at each other.

I've had one of those moments where I had a feeling I knew what was happening in a certain situation. In fact, I was willing to bet the farm that I was right. But I knew my brain would need proof. Hard core proof. So, given a chance to do something I shouldn't do to find out the truth, I did. What I read hurt more than I thought it would. It was weird how I knew ahead of time what to expect. I already had proof but had thought that I needed more.

The explanation I asked for, but didn't really want, didn't help at all. It wasn't the truth. Forgivable? Knowing what a calm, imperfect person I myself am...yeah I can forgive. But good grief, it still hurts, haunts, infuriates, embarrasses, makes me madder than heck....

I mentioned that I'm not perfect. In fact, I'm a mess. I will never forget the times in my life when I have hurt others, when I've said things I knew I shouldn't have. I also stated I had very strong feelings of the truth ahead of time.

Still hurts.

So now, with my heart pounding, body trembling, tears in my eyes....I'm not sure what to do to get certain things said, seen, heard out of my mind.

Mood: excruciating

Weight Update

I'm not sure where its gone from and its not much, but I've made progress.

So far, I'm keeping track of how many bottles of water I drink throughout the day and whether or not I exercise. Holding myself accountable seems to be the trick. It's reminding me that this is a gradual process. It'll take a little time...its not gonna happen tomorrow.

It is nice to see a little progress from tracking it from three weeks ago.

Long term, I hope to keep this up. Its one of those things that I'm gonna have to do forever...not just for three months.

Sorry, that was a very complicated complex thought for my little brain. Bear with me...I'll probably have more.

ADD with a side of Sleepy Brain

My evening drives me crazy when i have thoughts of something I could blog on during the day, but then totally forget when I get home. I'm brainless.

I am so very proud of the Texans whipping up last night on the Buckeyes...even if it they had me on the edge of my seat and very tense at the end. Whew. Cutting it close!

Speaking of the game. I stayed up way too late watching it last night. Very tired tonight. I'm even a little grumpy.

As much as I don't want to, I'm going to do a workout video before bedtime tonight. I even drank a red bull at 7:15 just to prepare. I'm gonna loose this weight. Pinkie promise. Then I know I'll be somewhat happier.

Now for that video.....

New Year's Resolutions

Mine:
1.) Lose 20 pounds by July-that's only 3 pounds a month.
2.) Keep up with my personal finances better and come out of next summer's electric bill on the better end.
3.) Speaking of electricity...fix up the pool in the backyard.
4.) Make it through the year without taking on another animal.

That shouldn't be too hard or unrealistic, right? K-time to get started.

Crazy Day Today

Not a bad day. We slept in a bit. Ahhh.....

...Yesterday they brought me breakfast in bed....today...I was poking them!

My afternoon went a lil crazy with a quick road trip of curiosity.

The girls both have their bff's over to spend the night. The first one out was my lil one. It had to be someone! Next, and nowhere close behind was her bff. The other two? Well, I heard thumping and giggling about five minutes ago.

I always feel obligated to stay up with them until everyone is asleep and tucked in nice and tight. But its now 2:00am, I think I'm more obligated to not falling asleep during church service tomorrow.

I'm screaming uncle and heading to my bed to see if there is any room for me. If not, then it's a Netflix movie on demand in the lazy chair.

Wish me luck.

I'm working on adding more to this little blog. My twitter and weight loss tracker are the two I'm interested in so far. Next it would be a miracle if I could merge my other blog and this one together as one powerful force....or just one blog. Either way.

Yawn. Off to search high and low for a spot to rest my leary head.

Night-Nite sweet blogger world. I snuggling up with ya.

Back.

I haven't updated in..... 4 months? That's not that bad is it?

Well, lil one LOVES kindergarden and is doing very well. She has a very patient and caring teacher that she adores. No big problems so far and she was nominated for Gifted and Talented by a couple of the teachers......no big surprise there--apple doesn't fall too far from the tree...ya know?

Big one has a love/ no-love relationship with her school. She likes the lockers....has trouble with the combination. She has a boyfriend...no I don't approve--but will admit that he's a good kid from a good family. I just think they're way too young for this stuff. Her grades are pretty good...A/B honor roll.

Me? I am digging the job. It's getting better each day. I love learning and this has been a whole new world for me. I'm pretty impressed with the owners and pretty much all that work there. Everyone has great interest in trying to get the job done right and efficiently. I'm still adding on to my Excel skills everyday....talk about a love /hate relationship. Excel is great...but can get complicated when working with big books.

I'll try to keep up.

I'm adding a graph on the side for my weight loss. It seems that when I strained my ankle in June and July I had trouble running for awhile. I'm getting back into it...but I packed on some weight in the meantime. Summer is right around the corner. I'm getting serious to get it off!

First days....great!!

Lil one....first day at kindergarten.

Big en'.....first day at intermediate school.

Mama.....first day at new work.

So far....triple thumbs up!!

We played the high/low game at dinner and here are the results:

Mama: Low- missing coworkers rolling their eyes at terrible sense of humor.
High-everyone was very nice, answered all questions and were patient with me.

Big en': High-got to eat lunch with all her friends from elementary school that she missed during the summer.
Low-having trouble operating that silly locker.

lil one: High-going to recess!!
Low-going back in from recess...

The morning went pretty smooth. We pulled off some last minute shopping this weekend (thanks Christi for that 20% off coupon....saved...well....20%!!!). We laid out all of our clothes, had lunch ready to throw together and mama's power drink (Bad Girl) in the fridge!

Intermediate school was first on the list since we didn't get to meet the teacher last week at Meet the Teacher Night.....since the school didn't have the classroom lists assigned just yet. Eek!!

We got there early and beat the traffic....straight to classroom to find other girls we knew in our homeroom class!! Hapiness. Kisses by all, pics taken....tears fell to the floor by mama. Ugh.

Next stop...Elementary. Very impressed with the organization of the parking, dropping off and traffic control. There were employees of the school, volunteer parents and plenty of police...which I'm sure were at every school.

Yes, lil one led mom straight to class room, lil one runs right in her classroom like she owns it and tells mom to hit the road! I think a couple more of those tears fell.

Off to mom's first day.....fretted over payroll until one, emailed to main office and was much much happier after that. Rumor has it that mama is going to the main office for lunch and orientation on second day.

Stay tuned for updates!
Will add pics too!!

New Job!!

After two crazy weeks of trying to find myself....
....a new job found me .

Yes its true. I am starting a new job on Monday. I am nervous and excited at the same time. I have been at my current job for six and a half years. I am going to miss my coworkers that I think of like family.

Stay tuned for details.

Ugh...

I'm so bad with keeping up on this thang.

The girls went to Branson, MI for a week with their Dad. Me super missed me some little girls.

They just got back home tonight. Yea!!

I spent a lot of time at work and play practice this week.

I am playing the role of Miss Willlie in The Curious Savage. So far so good. It's not a big part, but still a good one. I'm used to being cast as a dingish blonde...but this role is different. More on that later.

For now.....off to bed.

Diary of a Pool #1

We have a shell for an above ground pool in the backyard complete with a deck built around it. there is an electrical outlet near by and we also have a working water well.

We got tired of looking at it.

Here we go....



This pic is actually after the third time we've hopped in there and worked a bit. We're gonna take it slow this month since it is so hot outside.

....stay tuned for updates!! Hopefully before we know it, we'll be making a splash!