Playing

I got rid of my hiccups...although I wouldn't be surprised if they came back. I think for the first time in my life I sneezed and hiccuped at the same time. That's harsh.

I like to play a game with twitter. I start with someone I know and see how far I can get before I hit a twitterite with protected updates. It's like a maze. Yep, that reason #48 that makes me weird.

I'm on a mailing list for a director and I get a mailing every time they have auditions and open new shows. They have the oddest craziest stuff. I just received the latest mailing for their newest show. I think I'm actually gonna go see it in a couple of weeks. Just the thought is something to look forward to. I love theater.

Speaking of...tonight is last chance to get cleaned up. Tonight's play rehearsal didn't get canceled but it will be concentrating on a scene that I'm not in. So tonight I'm off and we received an email saying we will not be practicing on Friday night as feared due to the icy weather.

Off to clean little girls rooms....I'm scared. Very. Scared.

Mood: All napped up.

Cabin Fever

I. Must. Get. Out. Of. This. House.

The workplace started late and the bosses went in at noon...so rumor tells me.

I for one am stuck home cause I ain't got nobody to watch my offsprungs. I could take them back up there with me, but they tend to get restless fast in that break room.

Poor kids. Since their rooms have been so messy, they first got grounded from the computer. Day two of messy messy rooms and lack of tv is now added to that list. I warned the wii is the next to go. After that, I will start assigning tedious cleaning projects....scrubbing floors, sweeping garage....

My quest for a clean home will not be met with resistance. I shall stand tall and overcome this battle!!!

Ok, I promise I will not eat anymore peanut butter cookies.


Well, at least no more for today.

Mood: Cooped

Wuss.

I'm cold. Very cold.

I'm Texan. Yes, I am a wuss. (Yes Galloway-you said it best.)

Where are you, blankie? Put your arms around me and warm me up.

I'm ready for summer. Now.

If it doesn't arrive soon I shall runaway to a warmer place. Much warmer.

Until then....enjoy a pic of me kissing a fish.

Mood: Sugar wearing off.

Dear Ice Storm,

Welcome to Wise County, Texas. It would please me to no ends if you would make yourself at home. In honor of your expected arrival we closed our schools. We also threw dirt upon bridges from the back of a pickup truck as part of a ceremonious blessing for you.

Not that I'm one to complain about sticking to a schedule, but you did arrive a little on the late side. I had hoped your presence would have been felt stronger much sooner than the 20th hour of this day. I mean, we closed the schools and the roads didn't really start to get bad until around the 15th hour.

At any rate, eagerly we accept you into our humble existence and it is my hope that we treat you well. Just please, don't feel it necessary to over extend your stay. According to the schedule you are to leave upon the awakening of the sun. Our school, according to their website, demands the attention of my offspring at the tenth hour tomorrow.

Be swift along your journey and take with you our love to your next destination.

Mood: High on peanut butter cookies

You ask...

.....if it will rain.

Well, here is your answer.

You're welcome.

Mood: Cold

Worked

Last week and yesterday was so busy I let one payroll deduction slip through the crack, so I went in today to get it done since the main office was still operating. I'm glad I went in, I had a few emails that needed action on my part. That would have made tomorrow even hecticer. Hectic-er. I'm sure that's a word.

The girls enjoyed mama's work, as always. The guys usually tease them. Today one of the guys gave them a dollar each for the snack machines. The girls were very excited. I also arrived to find a big cinnamon roll on my desk from one of the guys. I nibbled a little piece. Oh my...that was good. I handed it over to the girls.

Another temptation was one of the guys trying to offer me a bag of m&m's. I'm starting to wonder if there is a betting pool somewhere on who can get me to cave. Good thing they don't know about my love for Dairy Queen blizzards.....you won't tell will you?

Mood: Defrosting

Gambling

All right, schools are closed....yea! But work is not....oh no!!

At the moment I can get away with calling in since I have no one for kids to be with. I did call in, but on the thought that within the next couple of hours its gonna be nasty out there and I don't want children stuck somewhere random and me not being able to get them.

Good grief, those poor guys in that shop! Its 28 degrees outside and they are working with steel....outside. Here I am with a bowl of lucky charms, my comfy robe and some knee high socks on.

If the weather doesn't get bad bad horrible here pretty quick, I'll regret even more not going in.

For now....going back to tv and bed.

Mood: Nervous

Evening.

Fun with the wii while its cold outside.

I like that wii fit. I would love it, but I'm fairly certain it mocked me.

I did the rhythm game....which is a lot harder than it looks. I started out with the easy one and got good enough to unlock the harder one. Then they throw in this clapping bit on top of the complicated stepping around moves. Hey I was raised Church of Christ....I feel lucky to even move in the first place much less clap at the same time.

So naturally the first time I do the advance one, I screw up. It had to stop three times to tell me to keep up with the other mii's. Then at the end of the segment, all the mii's swayed slowly back and forth with their head's hung in shame with slow sad music. Hey! That was just uncalled for! Cracked me up, yes...but uncalled for.

Back to the next set....I'm sooo keeping my fingers crossed it ices tomorrow. I love my job and workplace, but there is something about enjoying an ice day. This is Texas, we get teased with bad weather every once in a while...come on, bring it on. I even grocery shopped today...

OH! PS. The next time I don't have kids....I'm breaking out the alcohol and playing the wii. Wait....brain wheel turning....kids are asleep...hmmm...

Mood: Hopeful.

Whew.

What an insanely busy day I've had today. From beginning to end, it was busy. Just busy.

I was hit from ten different directions for most of the day. There was a time around....30 minutes before quitting time that I finished all the .....has to be done now stuff.

Now we're off to tumbling, where I will sit in the parent's room and gladly just read lines from my play.

When we get home I shall then vigorously work out with the wii fit for about thirty minutes just to let off some.....something.

New resolutions for the week: 1) quit whining so much and suck it up. 2) Don't look at websites that will leave a feeling of the need to whine---and no I'm not referring to porn. Well, mostly.

Mood: Dragging.

Weekend Wrap Up

I'm not sure I gave myself enough credit ahead of time for how strong I could be mentally. The jogs were great....I could have done without a little cold front, but I stood on top of a hill that I jogged up and looked over my kingdom. My house, is also amazingly cleaner than its probably ever been and I am nowhere near finished. I have plans that I should have done before now.

Last weekend I had suffered one of my saddest moments in a quite a while. I had a icky feeling it was coming, but it still sucked. Driving down the highway late at night I cried for a 26 mile stretch...then exited to my home.

Saturday night after the movie, I found myself on that same stretch, same time of night, and told myself I was not going to cry. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk...what a sap I am. I blame the same music that has been following me around and driving me bonkers for a week now. I so love hate music right now. Well, that and it was a bit hard on a gal to have that empty seat next to ya in a movie theater.

I'll survive. Someone (a frienemy) once told me that I'm like a cat, I always land on my feet. Hopefully that will stay true.

Off to bed. I washed the covers this weekend and they smell great....downy spring fresh. Maybe I'll dream of warmth (and remember dreaming).

Mood: Quiet

Re-Review

OK, movie review second thought...

...I don't take back the sub par acting or predictability but it wasn't too horrible. I think I put robbed for the mood and I'm not sure there was any movie out there that would have left me really really happy. I went alone and felt....alone.

The movie I wanted to see wasn't at that theater, but I love love love the movie tavern. I just adore eating greasy eggrolls, drinking a margarita, and sitting in a leather executive chair. Now not every Movie Tavern is that nice. The one in Bedford TX just happens to be nicer than others I've been to.

I should really broden my horizons and venture out. I'll do that eventually. Right now I'm pleased that I accomplished that small feat. I'm not sure I've ever ever been to a movie by myself before. That was a first. I'm sure I'll have plenty more firsts along the way.

Mood: Not completely robbed, I mentioned the food, margarita and chair.....(Seinfeld reference..kinda)

Kids home.

Yea! I made it through the weekend. I'm still alive and didn't sit on the floor with a box of tissues (at least not for more than thirty minutes at a time.)

Jog was incredible. I was shocked on how far I went and not walking. It felt great...well, not counting the asthmatic moment I'm still feeling two hours later.

My best moment today was mother asking me specifically how much weight I'd lost because she could tell by looking at me that I had. Mother isn't typically one to fill ya full of fluff, so I appreciated that comment. It made me feel like I was getting somewhere.

After church, after lunch, we went to Sams to get the treadmill she wanted. We walk in and they've got the silly wii fit for eighty bucks. I stopped dead in my tracks. If I got that it would come out of my savings account. What did I do? Yep, I hit it...I sooo hit it! Excited and feeling guilty all at the same time. Next wii splurge will be the Mario Cart. I've heard fantastic reviews. I'm not sure they are super excited over the Petz game I got them last. Surprised they're not all over it but...Mario, they'll love.

I also brought home the eliptical machine from my Dad's office building.

Speaking of....Dad looked terrible today. I'm not sure that heart of his is ticking quite like it should. This is one of those times when his stubbornness drives me crazy.

Kids home makes me happy. Their dad failed to mention (as if we ever speak) that little one threw up last night. I somehow feel that is pertinent information. Maybe its just me...but I feel like that could be worth mentioning. She still claims she doesn't feel good, but she did eat dinner.

Speaking of kids, I'm getting kicked off the computer...older one demands some surfing time. Which means, I need to get up and finish cleaning up after dinner. More later....they gotta go to bed sometime.

Mood: Distracted.

Takebacks allowed?

I might have been a little harsh in my movie review. It's semi possible I might be taking my own personal angry out on a poor defenseless movie.

I'll rethink that review and try again after a jog.

Just got home from parents. Church was good. It was good for my heart. Class was pretty interesting. Lunch after was delicious. After we both made purchases toward our health. Mom's was planned, mine was on the spot. I saw an item I've really really really wanted and they had so many and they were on sale.....I'm a weak, weak person, with an emptied out savings.

Pause for thinking.....

Still worth every penny.....I'll disclose later this evening.

For now, I only have an hour or so to jog before little girls come bursting through the door. They are normally "starving and haven't eaten all weekend.....(my kids have one healthy appetite.)

Mood: Encouraged.

Gran Toriono

I went out to see the new Clint Eastwood movie, Gran Toriono. I'm not sure I was that impressed with it. I'll admit, I was curious over exactly how the ending was going to take place, but I pretty much followed what the intent of the scene was going to be.

I wasn't impressed with the acting either. I'm now curious as to the budget of this film......and yes, Mr. Director, I could have done better. Throw me in a movie...I'll show ya. I guess just watching the movie there were some actors that just didn't leave me feeling they were that character. That can ruin a movie for me.

I did catch by checking imdb that there is a certain Scott Eastwood who goes by Scott Reeves.
I still feel like going off more on the acting particularly his....or lack thereof, but I'm too tired.
I was squeamish over all the derogatory comments that Clint Eastland's character used.

I think my most shocked moment was realizing the party of four behind me had "snuck" their own beer into the theater. Yep, canned beer. If it wasn't bad enough they talked through nine-tenths of the movie, the younger female had a five minute phone conversation over what so-so three trailers over did last weekend. (I kid you not.)

At the end of the movie, I hem-hawed around (couldn't help it) to get a good look at them. If they did leave behind the pop topping evidence can you guess which beer that brought?

I also happen to occupy the next stall in the bathroom....I will withhold the replay of that conversation. And, yes, you're welcome.

Movie Review: The acting did not measure up to the traditional standards of performance that I am accustomed to and the events that unfolded felt too predictable throughout most of the movie.

Mood: Robbed.

Slow Moving

and feeling strange. Going to hang with my parents tomorrow and am trying very very very super hard to stay productive.

Dogs got their shots.
-I have to take them back by next weekend. The vet shook her head in disgust when she learned I have not had them tested for heart worm nor are they on any treatment.
-Speaking of disgust, the first vet I had an appointment with ticked me off so I walked on out of there.
-Second one was a lucky find.

I have to get off my depressed butt and deliver a couple of things this afternoon, but I'm not in the mood to go back out. I really should have been prepared when I left earlier.

Mood: Cold

Up Up Up

I now regret that hard run last night. My hips are beyond sore. My back isn't too bad. I've got new exercises and stretches for it, that I do daily.

I woke up at seven am this morning, got out of bed, felt all the pain and then laid back down.

Today is a dogs day. Time for some shots and baths. They'll love hanging out inside.

Other than that, I'll spend plenty of time sneezing today.

Mood: Groggy

Kbuggie Gone Wild

Kinda.

Ok. Not.

Going to bed. I stuck with it till nine and I am the biggest baby in the world right now. I don't do well in the house alone.

So, I'm going to snuggle with my bunny that I've had forever and go to sleep.

Mood: Infantile

Friday night jog

started out with high hopes. The air was warm and the breeze was slight. It was just enough of each. Perfect.

Here we go up the hill from my house and the sky is just pretty. Stop at the stop sign. Beautiful. I take a deep, its-all-good-thought, and get a nice inhaled whiff of....Mexican food. Nice. Shoulders fall and I carry on.

I head down to the end of my road where I love how the sky looks upon the Church. I took that picture at the church with the sun setting behind it a couple of years ago. Except tonight, there was a funeral there. Made me a little sad.

I jogged around, through the schools to the end of the road where business 380 pops up. I've now gone a little over two miles. I decide I'll go up to the bank and back.

Of course running up Bus 380 with light slipping away is a little tough...I felt night blind and very nervous. So I turned down a side street thinking it would loop around to the sheriff's office and back to my road.

Nope.

It led straight up to the water tower.....a fine fine fine water tower, if you ask me.....and there I stood at the top of my town at very near night time. It was beautiful.
Back home I must go.

I had no idea on far away I was. I ended up over by the freeway intersection and realized the wind was picking up.

Basically the whole way home I had the opportunity to experience the cold front coming in, the wind picking up and not being able to see a thing. I could have stepped on a spider or something.

Almost home and finished with two pod casts....I come across a series of songs that made me whimper and then cry. The last 1/2 mile was cold, wind against me and sad songs in my ears.
I ran hard and fast to get home.

I ate my TV dinner, answered the phone to a telemarker...made her mad enough to hang up on me (bonus points for that) and now I type a long boring story that will probably (and deservedly) not get read the whole way through by anyone.

Mood: Here

The envelope please.....

Report cards came out today.

I already knew the grades of older child and suspected the results of the younger.

Older child, managed to get by with AB honor roll again. For her its been a huge struggle due to her dyslexia. When I was in school I also felt that was just an excuse to slack off. Now as an adult, with a child that has it, I have a whole different view point. She's a smart child, and almost seems like she has to work twice as hard for the same results as anyone else.

Second child is still doing great and still loves learning. Her wild behavior is starting to calm a bit. Last week at tumble class, the new teacher had trouble controlling the seven girls all around age six. Mine was the one that held steady and did not act up at all. Not once. I was on the edge of my seat just waiting...but she stood there calmly and patiently waiting for the teacher to resume the lesson.

If you have been around that child at all in the last six years, you would completely understand my amazement. Very impressive. Go her!

As per my offering and our agreement I owe my older child a prize for her good grades: a couple of webkin outfits that she has requested and will get. Go her (too)!

Mood: Proud.

Angry?

I'm sure I just up and found this poem somewhere....at any rate, I thought I would share...

I'm angry because you said you loved me. I'm angry because you lied.

I'm angry because of the excuse of too old and grumpy. I'm angry because I went on and tried.

I'm angry because of fears I had in my mind. I'm angry because you laughed as you denied.

I'm angry because inside you hurt me. I'm angry because I cried.

I'm angry because I thought this was it. I'm angry that your heart was too cold to let ours collide.

I'm angry because I put myself out there. I'm angry because you wounded my pride.

I'm angry because I really got what I deserve. I'm angry because I'm afraid my heart has died.

I'm angry because you go on as if it were nothing. I'm angry because its tough just to survive.

I'm angry because you said you loved me. I'm angry because you lied.

Whoever wrote that probably feels a little better without that tucked deep inside.

Mood: Searching.